p. tamarra

Jan 24, 2019

What 2019 Will Bring

A new year is among us and like most of you I plan on making some changes for the betterment of my life and well-being. To start, I want to write more and journal more on this platform that I began so long ago. Today I went through some of my old journal entries on here and fell in love with writing and sharing all over again.

I apologize for being away for so long and neglecting this platform. My life has been a whirlwind for the past year or so, but I promise to do better with making this a priority not only for you but for myself.

The past year I have been trying to figure out how to live more self aware. I have not been gentle with myself and I have not been showing myself the love I deserve. At the end of 2018, shortly after my Sistar Circle event I began to distant myself from the things that truly brought me joy. It wasn't intentional nor was I truly aware of it until recently.  In becoming aware of it I was able to see clearly that I was not living for myself which resulted in me getting lost in how others viewed me rather than who I truly am at the core of my being. I was living for the betterment of them and the relationship I had with them instead of living for the betterment of myself and allowing joy and love to lead me. 

In 2019, I am not doing that any longer.

I am living each day as my authentic self and if there is someone in my life that takes offense to that or disagrees with me or my actions they will be removed from my life. At the end of the day, you need people in your corner that truly loves and admires who you are outside of their own judgments and needs of you. 

In addition to this change, this year I will go after what I truly desire and deserve in life. For so long I have been holding myself back from following a dream, a job, a hobby, etc because I was too afraid of failing at it. I began something and didn't finish it or I had a great idea to start something and never got around to actually starting it. I was letting fear dictate every move I made or did not make in life. 
Realizing that fear and the fear of failure will always be there allowed me to figure out how to overcome it. Understanding that by trying you are succeeding in a way is how I will continue to look at fear this year. You cannot fail if you do not try. You cannot learn from your mistakes if you do not try. You cannot overcome those mistakes if you do not try. I am going after whatever I want as long as it fills me and God guides me to it and I am going after it with an overstanding that there is a lesson to be learned and growth to come from it..

I look forward to sharing more with you this year. I look forward to the growth we will have together. I look forward to the shifts and changes we will go through together. I look forward to what 2019 will bring. Let's kick ass! 

- patience tamarra

Apr 17, 2018

Our Sistar Circle

Sunday the 8th I, along side my beautiful sisters Zoë and Jasmine hosted an intimate sister circle event at a beautiful yoga studio in the city. The event was amazing, the studio was filled with so much love and light, those that joined us shared pieces of their stories and listened to ours. The moments we shared in that room will forever by cherished. Time stood still for us as we unraveled the many layers of trauma and pain we caused and endured from others and we were there for each other through it all. 

Now to take a step back.

I believe that sisterhood should be the foundation within the black wombman community, but unfortunately these days it seems that it is a foreign idea. I wanted to break that stigma because healing can truly come from sisterhood. Throughout my self-love journey, I have found that journeying together with my sisters who care for my well-being, motives me to keep pushing and reminds me that I am never alone no matter how lonely I may feel. This is what made me want to create this safe space for us. 

For the past 2 years I have been planning this event in silence. Not very sure of myself and my purpose, but everything began to align for me this year and the Universe sent many signs my way to confirm that I was on the right path. After much sacrifice, planning, crying, excitement and disappointment I was able to manifest a beautiful evening with beautiful wombman and I am so proud of myself. 

All of us had similar stories and all of us had similar traumas. Coming into the room you would see a group of beautiful black wombman unsure of themselves, but sure that they were in the right place at the right time. We all participated in a relaxing and grounding guided meditation with sound healing led by Jasmine, an intimate discussion about self-care, acknowledgement and acceptance led by Zoë, and a self-love activity led by yours truly. 

The evening ended with everyone chatting uncontrollably with one another, basking in all the glory that just took place and everyone receiving a self-care bag to take home with them. The self-care bag included daily reminders, sage, palo santo and a rose quartz crystal to help with the healing of their heart chakras.
 I am thankful for all of the beautiful wombman who came to this incredible event and allowed us to be apart of your healing. If you missed this event, don't worry. There will be more to come.

-Patience Tamarra
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